VLCD day #1

So I got a new scale yesterday at Costco. It measures by .2 of a lb. This one is quite a bit more accurate than the one I was previously using. I got on the scale this morning after my two loading days and was 271.4 lbs, YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I also did all my measurements. I figure I'll weigh in daily and take measurements weekly. I got up at 7am and took my drops and drank 3 cups of water. It's a little after 10am and I'm just starting to feel a little bit hungry. I think I'll eat an apple. Then at lunch time I'll have some chicken and vegetables. Dinner I plan to have fish and vegetables and for dessert tonight if I'm hungry I'll have a second apple.

I'm sooo sick of being fat!! I'm tired of trying and trying to lose weight with little or no success. I'm praying that this diet works and I'll be able to shed this weight once and for all. My ultimate goal weight for my height is 140lbs. So I pretty much have to lose half of my body weight. I'm trying not to let that discourage me. If I don't do something today, then a month or two or a year from now I'll look back and realize I'm still the same as I was today. I need to stop being scared of failure and instead be excited for my coming successes. Easier said than done...but i'll try my best.