What is going on?

Yesterday I wrote a very lengthy blog about what's been going on lately and all the things I've been struggling with. I went to "publish my post" and I got a huge ERROR message. Then it wouldn't let me go back to blogger till today. I just sat in my chair and cried. Then I got out a notebook and wrote a few pages. At least that can't get deleted. It's amazing how good it can feel to just "air out" my feelings. I've been feeling extremely depressed lately and have been eating out of depression which has caused some weight gain which is causing more depression.....rinse and repeat. I feel lost. I feel lonely. I feel unworthy. I feel sad. I feel angry. I feel hopeless. On the plus side my sister is flying into spokane today and will be here for about a week. That will take my mind off my inlaws coming. I so need to stock up on hard alcohol before they get here.

Good grief!

PEOPLE ANNOY ME! lol Seriously though, I'm so tired of stupid people. I read an article today about the Dugger family, you know, the family that has 19 children. People were blasting this family for having so many kids, complaining that they're using up too much of the earth's resources and gov't. money. Amazingly this family is 100% debt free. They even own their home. I don't about you, but I don't think I know of anyone who is completely debt free. I personally couldn't handle having so many kids, but I think they're an amazing family who are raising very respectful and loving children. On the other hand I know several families who rely on government assistance because they're down right lazy. They work for a few months, get laid off and enjoy the perks of unemployment for months upon months. They readily admit they think the government owes them a living. Are you kidding me? Anyway.....it just ticks me off that people get so mad at this family because it's not something they would personally do.

We're going camping tomorrow for a few days. ATM it's cold, rainy, and very windy. Hubby wants to go camping anyway. We'll be tent camping. I'm cold just thinking about it. I can't believe how much work it is to get all the gear, supplies, and food together just to camp for a couple nights. It's JUNE not freaking March. I wish the weather would cooporate just a bit. hmmmph!

We'll see if this post even goes through. I don't understand why I'm having so much freaking trouble w/ blogger lately.