BLASTED COLD

I'm so miserable. I can't breathe through my nose because it's so stuffy and breathing through my throat feels like I'm a fire breathing dragon. My eyelids feel weighted and I just want to curl up into my soft warm bed. My treadmill arrived today!! I was hoping I could haul it upstairs and start putting it together, but now that I realize it's over 200lbs and in a huge box, I'm going to having to wait till hubby gets home. My guess is it won't be put together till sometime on Saturday. Oh well. I don't feel good enough to get on it anyway.

Yay and Nay

Yay: My treadmill gets delivered tomorrow and my bodybugg will be delivered on Friday. This means that on Saturday I'll have the treadmill hauled upstairs and put together and will have gotten my bodybugg all ready to go. Soooo excited!

Nay: The little boy I babysit got a cold on Tuesday and shared it with me and my daughter. I'm sneezing contantly and my throat is on fire. Joy of freaking joys.

I'm going to make myself a cup of tea, put the kids to bed, and watch something on netflix. I so wish hubby was home. I miss him so much when he's gone on business.

BodyBugg

Well I took Mia's advice and ordered myself a bodybugg. It's on sale for $144 and I'll have enough cash to pay for it after next weeks babysitting. I loathe babysitting, but it does come in handy when I want to buy something that we otherwise could not afford. I babysit through June at the very latest and then I'll be donating plasma twice a week. I can earn up to $265 a month doing that, plus it helps out so many people. It's a win/win. Anyhoo back to the bodybugg. Apparently you wear it on your upper left arm and it calculates how many calories you burn throughout the day. You also log all the food you eat into it and it shows you what you need to eat and how much to get the weight off. Since hubby wants to start working out and really toning up, I thought this was a perfect tool for me. I'm sooo excited for my treadmill to get here and now my bodybugg! I'm anxious to learn how much exercise I need to do and how much and what I need to eat to get lean. I seriously have no clue. I guess it even breaks it down and tells you how many carbs, fiber, fat etc you need to eat. It's exactly what I always wanted!

Today I played with buttercream. I practiced making buttercream roses, boarders, and doing the basketweave. I feel like I'm growing everyday in my knowledge and passion towards cakes. When I worked at a bakery/coffee shop years ago I was blown away at how careless they were with the look of their baked goods. They tasted amazing but visually they were awful. I think so much of enjoying food is not only the taste but the visual as well. I want my food to taste as good as it looks. Have you ever seen something at the grocery store or a bakery that looked delicious and yet when you took a bite you were shocked at how gross it was? I have, many times. I want my baked goods to blow people away in taste and appearance. For instance the sugar cookie recipe I used for my father took me 15+ years to find. I like my sugar cookies soft. Every soft sugar cookie recipe I'd ever used always "swelled" so much while baking that whatever shape I'd used to cut it out now looked swollen and mishapen. This recipe doesn't do that. It's a SUPER sturdy cookie that holds it's shape wonderfully and yet has a wonderful soft texture. The flavor is also fantastic. I can't imagine finding a recipe that would top this one. This thrills me to no end. It's like finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I have such a huge passion for baking. I get immense joy watching people's eyes light up when they look at my goodies and then again when they take their 1st bite.

I was looking into taking some Wilton cake decorating classes at my local craft store and saw that the gal who teaches these classes is the same one who teaches at our local community college. She also will come to your home and teach you one-on-one for $30/hr. She'll teach me whatever I want her to. If I want to learn how to do topsy turvy cakes (oh so cute) she will. Literally anything I want she'll teach and I wouldn't have to take a class that would go over things I already know how to do. Anyway I was super excited to learn I could hire her to personally teach me caking decorating.

Here are some pictures of some cookies I made for my grandmother last year. I inserted wooden skewers right after the cookies came out of the oven. I used them to make a valentine cookie bouquet. ♥

Dad's Birthday Cookie

This is the giant cookie I made for my dad's bday today. Ü

decisions

Well I talked to hubby again last night and if it were up to him I'd never do hcg again. He feels it's way to much of a burden on the family when I do it. He's the most sporatic person I know. On the weekends he'll deceide he wants to take the family on a hike and within 10 min we're out the door. When I'm on hcg I have to make sure I bring my meals w/ me, my water, and my hcg. Then because I drink so much water, I'm using the restroom nonstop. He says I'm grumpy while on the diet. He says that now that my metabolism is fixed and working properly that I should exercise and eat well to lose the remaining weight. He wants to start exercising on a regular basis (possibly P90X) to build up his strength. I think he wants a partner in fitness, and when I'm on the drops that just isn't possible. I will try it his way for a few weeks and see how it goes. If the results aren't coming through, then I'll jump back on hcg and use up the rest of my bottle. I have about 5 weeks worth left. I feel like I'm a fish out of water....flopping back and forth. I wish he wouldn've said something before I started up again. ugh!

Today my oldest son has his 1st birthday/sleepover at a friend's house. I don't know why I'm nervous, but I am. I'm sure everything we'll be fine. He's super excited and I'm truly happy for him. He's growing up! Today is my father's bday. I have a truly amazing soft sugar cookie recipe that he adores. I made him a special gaint bday cookie that I can't wait to give him. I'll take a picture of it later and post it.

I hope you all have a lovely Saturday♥

frustrated

I love my husband, but there are times he drives me nuts! He got a nice big fat bonus yesterday and he very lovingly purchased me a very nice treadmill from costco. Then he asked me if I would postpone hcg for a couple weeks so we can go out to dinner on our anniversary. I told him I didn't mind going out to dinner and just ordering a salad w/ baked chicken and I could bring my own dressing. He wasn't going to have it. I don't understand why all of a sudden he's now against me doing this. I asked him if I could start up again after our anniversary and he said that would be fine. I'm thinking he would rather me lose weight exercising and eating healthy than do hcg. I don't want to get all in his face and start an argument, esp after he bought me a treadmill. I was able to lose all my load weight, plus another lb. So I guess I'll stop for a couple weeks and then start up again. Grrrrrrrr When I start up again I don't think I'll "load" instead I'll just pick up where I left off. sigh

cake

Looks like I've been asked to do 2-3 more cakes for friends on facebook! yay! One is going to be a twilight cake, yay!! I'm excited and a little nervous.