What is going on?

Yesterday I wrote a very lengthy blog about what's been going on lately and all the things I've been struggling with. I went to "publish my post" and I got a huge ERROR message. Then it wouldn't let me go back to blogger till today. I just sat in my chair and cried. Then I got out a notebook and wrote a few pages. At least that can't get deleted. It's amazing how good it can feel to just "air out" my feelings. I've been feeling extremely depressed lately and have been eating out of depression which has caused some weight gain which is causing more depression.....rinse and repeat. I feel lost. I feel lonely. I feel unworthy. I feel sad. I feel angry. I feel hopeless. On the plus side my sister is flying into spokane today and will be here for about a week. That will take my mind off my inlaws coming. I so need to stock up on hard alcohol before they get here.