I wish food wasn't so important to me. Although I don't obsess over it as much as I did 2 months ago, I still feel completely drawn to it. I think about it entirely too much. I almost despise going grocery shopping now because walking around and seeing all the foods I cannot have and smelling the bakery and or deli drives me nuts. I guess it's the 20+ years of bad eating habits that have lead me up to this point. Obviously being 126lbs overweight (sigh) proves I cannot control myself. Yet here I am, after losing over 30 lbs, feeling sorry for myself because I cannot go down into the kitchen and eat whatever I want. Self control is SO hard! I know I can do this for the long haul. I've done it almost 2 months now. I haven't had any sugar in almost 2 months. That's a crazy thing for me to even say. It feels good though, kind of like a badge of honor. If Erica the sugar/carb whore can go almost 2 months w/o cheating, anyone can.
Time to get in bed before I do something stupid and have to forfeit my new badge. =o)
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I'm in the same boat, lady. I'm hoping by the end of the second round that I won't still be this consumed with food. This is exactly what quitting smoking feels like...at first it's ALL you can think about, and eventually the desire dies down a bit, but there's always that little something in the back of your mind. That's exactly why I've quit...and re-started...smoking so many times in the last 14 years. My goal (after I'm done losing weight) is to be done with cigarettes once and for all. I just can't handle both at the same time, I would go insane.
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