VLCD #1

I had just a few bites of chicken last night, no corn, and 5or 6 bites of mashed potatoes. I soo wasn't hungry. I did have a small bowl of muddy buddies around 8pm just to get in a bit more fat. I felt so sick and layed in bed praying I wouldn't have to get up to vomit. yuck! On the other hand I slept great! I've been sleeping terrible for the last few months. Waking up several times throughout the night. Not last night. I slept soundly and woke up at 6am bright eyed and bushy tailed. I'm going to have a coffee w/ choc rasp stevia. Then I'll do hcg drops right before we go to church at 8:30. After church I'll have some strawberries. Then i'll have to go to the store. I need to get chicken, lettuces, asparagus, cucumbers, and some celery. For lunch I'll make some chili. Ground chicken, tomatoes, a little onion, and lots of yummy spices. I'll update this blog later as the day progresses. =)

Finishing up my 2nd loading day.

I can't believe my 2nd loading day is almost over! So much food, so little time. lol

Bre, if you google I am Baker Rose Cake, you can see how the rose cake is done. It's not my creation, it's just copying her. She's quite talented and comes up with really pretty and unique ways to decorate w/ buttercream. Once she came up w/ the rose cake, EVERYONE started doing them. It's crazy. They're so beautiful and soooooooo easy to do. It's almost embarrassing how easy and fast it is. On the other hand, it's nice because it's quick and it's a show stopper. Everyone will rave about it. So shhhhhh don't tell em how easy it is. ;) It would still be fun to get together and talk cake stuff though! Things will slow down and I'll have more free time when school starts back up on the 6th.

I can't leave comments on blogger either. I remember Mia sent me some link to upgrade my Java or something and then blogger worked again. I'll have to do some investigating and see if I can figure out what's going on. It's annoying not being able to leave comments. grrr

Today I had a handful of muddy buddies for breakfast and we walked out the door to the farmers market. Then for lunch we went to the High Nooner (by costco and Jamm's) and had what's called an almost ruben. Instead of sauerkraut (sp?) it had coleslaw on it. Suuuuper yummy! Then I can home and had a bite of fudge we bought at the farmer's market. It was horrid. For dinner we're grilling chicken and corn on the cobb. Thought I'd make some extra rich mashed potatoes to have on the side. I might have a few more muddy buddies for dessert and then I'm done loading. I'm not hungry at all right now. In fact I feel rather sick. It always amazes me how quickly those drops start working.

I'm going to weigh in tomorrow morning and then I'll weigh on my last VLCD. Then I can see as a whole what I've lost. We'll see how it goes. ;)
Dang it's hot today! Hubby wants to go to the beach after dinner. ugh! I go to the beach w/ the family but I haven't gotten in a swimsuit at all this summer. Instead I sit in a chair and watch while my family cools off and I bake in the sun. I also secretly glare at all the skinny bikini wearing teenagers. booo on them lol

Good luck Bree! I'm so glad I'm not the only one doing hcg, it's so nice to have other's out there doing it w/ me.

Ooops

So today I was refreshing my hcg knowledge by rereading through my book. I realized that instead of doing 1 loading day, I really need to follow all the rules of this diet. No screwing around and only loading one day. I want this round to be super successful and in order to achieve that, I need to follow the rules. I had avocado toast for breakfast, a latte mid morning, leftover spaghetti for lunch, a panini for dinner and a few handfuls of muddy buddies for dessert. I can tell the drops are already working because my tummy feels insanely full and I haven't eaten more than I normally do. I'm starting to get excited about starting up another round. =) Tomorrow I'm going to the farmer's market to get some fresh huckleberries, woohoo!

Another 6 weeks of hcg, here we go.

Today is my last loading day before I start another 6 weeks of the VLCD. I've been going back an forth and if I should weigh daily or not. I know I get super discouraged if I only lose .2 lbs or worse if I just stay at the same weight. Deep down I know my body is doing what it needs to do to lose weight and the numbers on the scale shouldn't mean anything, but they do. For this round I thought I'd expirament. No weighing until maintenence. Just let things happen the way they're supposed to and completely eliminate the stress I feel daily on HOW MUCH AM I GOING TO LOSE? WHAT IF I DON'T LOSE ANYTHING TODAY? etc etc. I want this round to be as stress free as possible. I've seen other's try this method and they really enjoyed it. They got their encouragement from their clothes fitting better and their energy level going up. I'll be flying to Boise at the end of October to visit my siter. I'd love to be down a full size before I visit her. The seats on those planes are rather small and I carry a lot of my weight in my butt, legs, and theighs. oy! I'm hoping that with my kids starting school and me really getting into my cake business, that I won't focus on food quite so much and that I can really get into a good hcg groove. Woot! Here's to shedding the weight!

Time to start again.

Well my friends, I believe it's time to start hcg again. I'm ashamed to say I have fallen right back into old habbits and have gained a good portion of my weight back. I really thought I had my eating issues figured out and was on a path to becoming slim. Why do we sabotage ourselves? Anyone? My good friend Amanda is having her baby shower in two weeks. Her and I are going to a ton of effort to make it amazing. I want to enjoy her special day w/ her and enjoy the foods we'll be preparing and the 3 different cakes (yes I said 3) I'll be making for her shower. I'll be using her shower and the day after to "load" and will start my next round of VLCD's on Monday, August 15th. I could sit here and wallow in my self misery......instead I'm going to refocus on getting healthy and making life long eating changes.

What is going on?

Yesterday I wrote a very lengthy blog about what's been going on lately and all the things I've been struggling with. I went to "publish my post" and I got a huge ERROR message. Then it wouldn't let me go back to blogger till today. I just sat in my chair and cried. Then I got out a notebook and wrote a few pages. At least that can't get deleted. It's amazing how good it can feel to just "air out" my feelings. I've been feeling extremely depressed lately and have been eating out of depression which has caused some weight gain which is causing more depression.....rinse and repeat. I feel lost. I feel lonely. I feel unworthy. I feel sad. I feel angry. I feel hopeless. On the plus side my sister is flying into spokane today and will be here for about a week. That will take my mind off my inlaws coming. I so need to stock up on hard alcohol before they get here.

Good grief!

PEOPLE ANNOY ME! lol Seriously though, I'm so tired of stupid people. I read an article today about the Dugger family, you know, the family that has 19 children. People were blasting this family for having so many kids, complaining that they're using up too much of the earth's resources and gov't. money. Amazingly this family is 100% debt free. They even own their home. I don't about you, but I don't think I know of anyone who is completely debt free. I personally couldn't handle having so many kids, but I think they're an amazing family who are raising very respectful and loving children. On the other hand I know several families who rely on government assistance because they're down right lazy. They work for a few months, get laid off and enjoy the perks of unemployment for months upon months. They readily admit they think the government owes them a living. Are you kidding me? Anyway.....it just ticks me off that people get so mad at this family because it's not something they would personally do.

We're going camping tomorrow for a few days. ATM it's cold, rainy, and very windy. Hubby wants to go camping anyway. We'll be tent camping. I'm cold just thinking about it. I can't believe how much work it is to get all the gear, supplies, and food together just to camp for a couple nights. It's JUNE not freaking March. I wish the weather would cooporate just a bit. hmmmph!

We'll see if this post even goes through. I don't understand why I'm having so much freaking trouble w/ blogger lately.